Dear Lolo
I remember when I was a little kid I was a bit intimidated to you whenever we had family reunions. Maybe it was because of your serious look (at least now I know where I get this serious look of mine) and your grouchy language. Tsk tsk. First impressions never last, I say. I’m thinking that how will I act in front of you now that I’m two years older since we last saw each other?
Probably I am still a sacred cat in your presence. I tried to be strong to you, but I couldn’t. I attempted to be as brave as a lion to you, but still ended up my tail falling behind. But these didn’t stop me from caring for you. Only my care for you is as strong as the wildest beast.
I also remember someone (my cousin Izell) said I was one of your favorite grandsons. I am not sure if that was really true or not but I felt happy deep inside, knowing that you have also appreciated me. I want to say thank you and sorry for not realizing that earlier. I could have done something better for you only if I knew you would die earlier than expected.
Yeah, it has already been two years since you passed away. And now, we will come to your grave and spend the day with you. Hope I won’t cry. I don’t want you to see that I still feel gloomy to what had happen. I know I should be happy now that you are in with God’s presence, happy as well. So there’s no need to be sad, right? But will you let me feel sad if I wanted to? I still want to cry for you, will you allow me?
By the way I read Izell’s blog again:
LoLa sAid.. “cGuro if u aNd arjie(my cousin) stAyd here, ur LoLo mAy be heaLthy! beCause everday he’ll prepare ur breakfast 4 skuL, take u a riDe 2 ur skuLs, fEtch u from skuL and give anything u nEed!.. dAts wat ur LoLo LikEs to do!..”
Somewhat I felt guilty after reading that. I didn’t give a lot of importance to these things when I lived with you before. I admit I just took them for granted. I didn’t even say thank you. Hope I really could have done something in return to everything you did to us especially to me.
Sorry. We missed you. And thanks.
